Tuesday, March 3, 2009
One Step at a Time
Wow! I only have two months left as an undergrad! I can't believe it! I am currently searching for job opportunities through the company that I work part-time for now. I am looking through the company's intranet page and there are job postings all over the country. Many of the postings that I come across are in California. I have always said that I would move there when I graduate, and it has always been a dream of mine, but I now I am kind of scared. I am definitely in my comfort zone at this point of my life, but once May rolls around, it's going to be a different story. I am very close with my family and it will be a huge adjustment to not live just 30 miles away from them. When I think of moving away from my family I actually feel physically ill. What if something happens and I can't get back home right away? What if I move away, get settled in and then truly hate it? Worse: What if I stay put where I am, get really old and regret not pursuing what I had the potential to do? Ugh! I am deciding to push all these thoughts aside, submit my resume to as many positions as possible and just wait. Maybe nobody will want to hire me anyway. Maybe they will and my whole life will change. Who knows. I am just going to take it one step at a time. Breathe Jayme...
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Jayme: Human beings are funny, aren't they? When things are secure, they become bored and want excitement..the excitement of the unknown. But, when things are unknown, they want the security of the familiar.
ReplyDeleteI can't possibly know where you'll end up, but I know it will be "just right." (Just like in "Goldilocks and the Three Bears.") I have faith the universe is unfolding for you just as it should. Your current confusion? Only temporary.
Nothing but blue skies ahead!
You should set a goal for yourself to move to Cali by 2011 or something like that. Then you have the time to prepare yourself and find a job. I'd say you should definately just do it no matter how afraid you are of the unknown. If you hate it, no one is keeping you there.
ReplyDeleteGood luck with the job hunt and decision making!
Jayme, I'm feeling the heat too and I don't even want to be in the kitchen. I mean I'm looking forward to graduation and taking that next step, but it's such a hazy step that holds no guarantees and I think that's what discourages me the most about graduating. Let me just give you a little nugget of inspiration: If you ever feel unprepared or behind in your transition to the real world then remember that Kyle is probably even a few steps behind that. I feel for ya.
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